Dear KC,
It’s five years since you left me now. I can still remember every detail like it’s happening right now. If I look back, the last five years feel like a blur without you. It still hurts as much as it did then. I just want you back, always. I would trade everything I have and ever will have to be by your side forever. I want to die just so I can be with you.
I love you so much I can’t even explain. The pain of you not being hear is too much. Tears don’t help, I just feel sick inside. I need you here, I need you with me every day.
People say ‘but what about what he needs’, but I genuinely believe you need me. We were two pees in a pod, soulmates, bound together, meant to be. I don’t want you to be sad, but then if you do need me like I need you, does that mean you’re sad? That’s a terrifying thought… What if you’re as sad as I am?! How do I fix that for you? How do I help you? I can bear the idea that you might be miserable!
Please, tell me you aren’t miserable. But then if you’re not with me, how can you not be miserable.
Oh gosh, I don’t know what to do. There is no right answer to this. Please don’t be in pain.
I don’t know what to do.
I don’t know what to say.
Can’t we just be together and then everything would be okay?
I love you, always.